Get Comfortable with Being Uncomfortable by Anonymous

On October 13th, 2016, posted in: recovery by

Recently I went through an experience that brought up many emotions:  excitement, encouragement and surprise, just to name a few.  Quickly, my stinkin’ thinkin’ kicked in and I also experienced fear, resentment and grandiosity.

One of the statements that I heard from my first sponsor that has always stayed with me is, “You better get comfortable with being uncomfortable.”  I have taken that to heart throughout my recovery, shared it in meetings and also with sponsees.  I have always kept that saying in the forefront of my mind, and when faced with uncertainty (which is where I struggle the most), historically I have done a bang-up job staying sane. This time was different. Step Six
Consequently (and maybe ironically), I was also in the middle of another 6th Step.  However, writing about character defects/assets only seemed to propel me deeper into the downward spiral.  I felt like I was on a roller coaster of uncertainty (and recently I blacked out on a roller coaster), so needless to say, I was ready to get off this ride.

In the midst of the mind-bending chaos going on between my ears, I prayed to God to help me make a decision and move on.  It’s amazing how connecting with something outside of myself has the power to completely bring me back to center, calm my nerves and give me a voice.  Before I knew it, I was opening a door, walking through it and reading a note written on a mirror (in red lipstick) that said, “You know what to do, so do it.”  Not really, but that’s how it played out in my head J

Since I have been in recovery, I have only done one thing perfect, and that is not use.  I have changed a lot in 10 years, and I have no doubt that I will change more over the next 10.  There are many things in my life that have caused me to be uncomfortable, but these things have also almost always taught me a lesson that I needed to learn.

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